Fallen

  One person witnessed me at my very worse, rock-bottom, surviving the earthquakes caused by the unstable ground I walk on. You’re one person I wasn’t afraid of being judged by, but I noticed the very human things about you that made me jealous of who you are. My heart wakes me up. It’s screaming … More Fallen

At a Loss of Words

I walked the seas and swam the deserts searching for words. I have nothing left to say. Collapsing against my skin; the ocean waves turn into droughts that spill into my mind like water used to grow roses once dead. Droughts I cannot comprehend. Leaving my soul wishing for a love heavy on its shoulders: … More At a Loss of Words

Unknown Symptoms

Do you ever feel like you’re on a verge of a mental breakdown? Out of nowhere, the symptoms kick in. My blood sugar suddenly dropped but I already took my pill. I didn’t skip any meals today. My heart is racing out of the blue yet it feels likes it’s not beating at all. My … More Unknown Symptoms

A Liar’s Truth

No matter who says that what I say is true, I’m a liar who lives with his made-up truth. When men decided to fly I was crawling deep under. My desire to be confined throws me into a wonder. No one can hurt me as well as I hurt me and I don’t believe it … More A Liar’s Truth

She Awaited Love

  She awaited love in a room void of meaning, hoping she’d spot it along the glittering light but she found herself suffocating on the words she chose to live by. All she was: dust on the lace curtains that locked in her eyes. She awaited love in a room void of meaning, sitting nude … More She Awaited Love

Who am I?

  I am a lover. I am a fighter. I am a daughter and a son.  I’m here but my heart lies elsewhere. I’m a ghost. I’m the air between your fingers. I’m the breeze against your neck. I’m around when I’m not. I see with my eyes shut. I listen to silence. You’ll find my … More Who am I?

Soon You’ll Regret

Soon you’ll forget her scent and the sounds she makes when she has a nightmare. You’ll forget how her hands perfectly fit in yours, how her eyes twinkle like little stars in the nighttime sky and the many details you once fell in love with: the lines on her back that outline her bones, the … More Soon You’ll Regret

Time Dweller

  Where have I been all this time? This mirror holds onto a life – a soul without an ache; eyes with peculiar tendencies in an age of fright. I’m a time dweller that never learned to speak. Behind me is a city dying but I’ve no care. I stand by the water for a … More Time Dweller

They they they

There’s something beautiful and equally terrifying about being in love with your thoughts. I like to lose myself in my thoughts, pretending I’m not one but a hundred people. We’re all very different but we’re stuck in one body. One body and one mind. A mind that has a job of many. A mind that’s on the … More They they they

Sold My Own

  Sold my own, your soul for my throne — a wasted name, a memory without a frame. You should’ve known, I’m building up a storm, and its rain burns more than my growing flames. Close your eyes, you’re all alone and there’s a war within my walls. The cause is gone, this is the last … More Sold My Own

Waterbeds

    When did laying on my bed feel like drowning in thin air on heavy water? The heat transverses the length of my skin and converges with the water beneath me A body: still and restless — moving, spinning around, in a place it’s paralyzed in With muscles frozen, my heart beats migrate through … More Waterbeds

Little Monster

Can pain come from a place other than what I believe is a mistake? He gave into an obedience derived from his fear. He mustn’t be aware. We mustn’t speak. Words haven’t been said. But the free crowned a king — the rebellion is lost. He’ll regret ever living again. You think the breaths you take … More Little Monster

Beastly Night

Dried efforts cry through the night as the drought within me spills into the darkness. Bleeding through an escape to this ride in a life sealed with a lethal twist. I’m running to a place deep under. Meet me there by 12 in the dark. Come to me. Surrender. I swear I saw a light. … More Beastly Night

My God

I feel so alone when I’m alone with you and when our lips meet I feel far removed but I hear a voice from a distant land, calling for me, reaching for my hand. Is it god? I wonder. I always thought god was love then I started seeing god in us but others speak … More My God

Him

“Alyazya” I hear a voice that made a home in parts of my brain that fail to function. My sanity is spilling out of my frame and my feet are heavy with blood. I don’t want to see him. I don’t want to see him because I want to see him so bad. Clouds form … More Him

I got you

I’m holding you. Your venomous skin against my thin coated body; I’m destined to melt in this cup of misery. I don’t even get to drown. Your flaky skin feels oddly smooth against mine. Skin that was once so strong I thought it could evaporate my very being. Skin I imagined slicing open at moments … More I got you

Music drains me

My long drives, my happiest days and my nights in complete sorrow are often spent in silence. I’ve always romanticized the idea of listening to music in order to heighten my emotions or externalize them but that’s as effective as trying to push a wall through a mountain. Music, as beautiful as it is, has … More Music drains me

The burdens of her

I’ve been stumbling upon many articles about the first female this-and-that lately. For the past 2 years or so, we’ve had first female pilots, CEOs, and ministers. It brings me a feeling of contentment that fails to last because my eyes refuse to be blinded by what is being done for publicity. Nothing changed in … More The burdens of her