Sitting amidst the chaos, estranged from reality, holding onto fragments of hope and snippets of memories that belong in the past. I was hoping that things might turn out better than expected, but as the night passed by, it brought in clarity; hurtful realizations I needed to release myself from a moment of stagnation.
A hurricane swept the room and my emotions built up a storm. My heartbeats were louder than the music, people were moving fast, and the room was spinning around me. Breathing became a chore. I ran out of smiles to fake. My façade was shattering, but I was held in place by three pillars; the shaking ground could not throw me off balance.
Still, I was calling for a celebration that was begging to be left behind. And so, I left it behind and it’s all clear now.
Held down by your ego, you forgot to find the goodness in your heart. I wonder if that moment was more about you or me. How is it that you can’t think beyond yourself when all of it is happening outside of you?
You left a hole within me to be filled by someone else. Finally, in the midst all of this, I found myself to love. Thank you for setting me free.