Can pain come from a place other than what I believe is a mistake? He gave into an obedience derived from his fear. He mustn’t be aware. We mustn’t speak. Words haven’t been said. But the free crowned a king — the rebellion is lost. He’ll regret ever living again. You think the breaths you take … More Little Monster
Dried efforts cry through the night as the drought within me spills into the darkness. Bleeding through an escape to this ride in a life sealed with a lethal twist. I’m running to a place deep under. Meet me there by 12 in the dark. Come to me. Surrender. I swear I saw a light. … More Beastly Night
Here I am, once again, trying to remember who I used to be before I lost to insanity. It’s funny how the only thing I see is how unhappy it is to be me. It’s past 12, I’m at it again. Holding onto what I remember of you. I’m running out of energy just trying … More Wasting my thoughts on you
I feel so alone when I’m alone with you and when our lips meet I feel far removed but I hear a voice from a distant land, calling for me, reaching for my hand. Is it god? I wonder. I always thought god was love then I started seeing god in us but others speak … More My God
“Alyazya” I hear a voice that made a home in parts of my brain that fail to function. My sanity is spilling out of my frame and my feet are heavy with blood. I don’t want to see him. I don’t want to see him because I want to see him so bad. Clouds form … More Him
I’m holding you. Your venomous skin against my thin coated body; I’m destined to melt in this cup of misery. I don’t even get to drown. Your flaky skin feels oddly smooth against mine. Skin that was once so strong I thought it could evaporate my very being. Skin I imagined slicing open at moments … More I got you
My long drives, my happiest days and my nights in complete sorrow are often spent in silence. I’ve always romanticized the idea of listening to music in order to heighten my emotions or externalize them but that’s as effective as trying to push a wall through a mountain. Music, as beautiful as it is, has … More Music drains me
